Wednesday, December 30, 2009

empty

When thinking about this project, I thought alot about my favorite belongings. What are they, in order, the top 10, 25, 100? Lists, displaying them, tracing their outlines on the muslin... all kinds of ideas. But really when I thought more about it, I have favorite things, but there's really nothing that I couldn't let go of, nothing that I feel like I would die if I didn't have. That was kind of a good feeling, a freeing one.

I started thinking more about places, where you are (belong), where you put things. How some places lend themselves to easy arrangement and some are continually confounding. Some places you feel right in, some you don't. In some places you are productive, in some you are not.

An empty place feels so spacious, fresh, like a clean-slate and full of possibility.

I finished my piece for Betsy today, and it is a group of items including a floor plan of a past favorite apartment.


Near the bone

It is life near the bone where it is sweetest.
Thoreau

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Between Here and There




Sometimes when I am
where I am supposed to belong,
I don't feel like I belong.

But when I am standing,
I know that I belong somewhere
between the surface of the earth
and the top of my head.

Friday, December 11, 2009

knotted communications

Belongings and counting.
Belongings and time.
Belongings and accumulation.
Belongings and exchange.

This is an example of a khipu.



According to a Harvard website, “most of the existing khipu are from the Inka period, approx 1400 – 1532 CE. The Inka empire stretched from Ecuador through central Chile, with its heart in Cuzco, a city in the high Andes of southern Peru. Colonial documents indicate that khipu were used for record keeping and sending messages by runner throughout the empire… The word khipu comes from the Quechua word for “knot" and denotes both singular and plural. Khipu are textile artifacts composed of cords of cotton or occasionally camelid fiber. The cords are arranged such that there is one main cord, called a primary cord, from which many pendant cords hang… When khipu were in use, they were transported and stored with the primary cord rolled into a spiral. In this configuration khipu have been compared to string mops…The Inkas used a decimal system of counting. Numbers of varying magnitude could be indicated by knot type and the position of the knot on its cord… More recently, researchers such as Gary Urton have recognized the depth of information contained in non-numeric, structural elements of khipu.” For more, see: http://khipukamayuq.fas.harvard.edu/WhatIsAKhipu.html

Sunday, December 6, 2009

facial floor plans





In New Zealand, the Maoris refer to their tattoos as Moko. Traditionally, they tattooed large areas of their bodies as well as their faces; some Maoris still do. I was fascinated to learn that segments of the designs of a person's facial moko may reference the person's immediate family or relatives.

European colonizers discovered that the "owner" of a moko could draw it from memory (without a mirror) and that he used it as a signature. I found examples of this on line. In the first case, it is the image of a land grant that was signed by a Maori named Tuawhaiki, chief of Otago Ngaitahu tribe. The second example is a signature of a Maori named Kowiti who was the chief of Waimate and Maunganui.

To me, there's a correspondence here with the floor plan Lynne posted. The moko signatures look a bit like maps.

It makes me think about the floor plan of my apartment and how I inhabit the space. I think about which areas I've lived in the most and the corners I am rarely even aware of. I think of the floor plan of my face, how I have inhabited it, and it has inhabited my life. I wear the sun on my cheeks, the water I drink: in my eyes. My eyes are doorways, as are my ears, mouth, and nose. Passages where I tread more often. And the edges of my forehead, where it meets the thicket of my hair -- this is a quiet place, but equally important. The years have started to dry and gather into creases on my skin.

And just as the moko signature references family - shared DNA, shared memories, belonging - the floor plan of my face connects me to mine. My nose looks more like my father's now. My chin, I am told, comes from my grandfather. My eyes are brown like my mother's.

5528 N. Kenmore Av., #204, Chicago, IL


This is an apartment I lived in for 2 years, from 1996-1998 in the Uptown neighborhood of Chicago. It was the first apartment I lived in by myself. I lived here during a year off from grad. school, while working as a secretary in the financial district, sort of retreating and collecting myself. It felt good to be in this space, a completely rehabbed interior of an old building, including a classic clawfoot tub. The affordable rent allowed me to easily live within my means then, at least the 1st year when I had steady employment. The sunroom was a great studio space, I was very productive there. Not all spaces work well, but this one did, even though the kitchen was so narrow that you couldn't fully open the fridge door. There's always a shuffle of belongings and furniture, and some items work out, while other things acquired prove to be mistakes. I learned during this time of my life (moving 4 times in 5 years), that I didn't want to own anything that I really didn't need or love and didn't want anything that I couldn't carry myself.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Monday, November 16, 2009

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Treasures






























Shelves of favorite things, books, gifts from friends and family, some handmade.














Box from Lydia with favorite things... my dog's collar, buttons, omiyage from my brother's trip to Japan, a small Lisa photo, business card from my grandfather, "pee babies".













Box I got in Chicago, it had rocks in it originally. Now the box has, among other things, shells from a store in San Pedro that's sadly no longer there, painted rice, healing dirt, garnets from Alaska from Jane, Leda's "origami" (folded/crunched up paper fastened with tape) from when she was about 4 years old.

In thinking about "belongings" these are the things that first came to mind for me. Things that I love for one reason or another, most have been with me for a long time. Sometimes the importance is the object, sometimes the importance is more in who gave it to me. All these things have positive vibes/energy (whatever you want to call it) for me, even if they are from bittersweet times of life.

When life felt simpler, and like there was more time, I went through things regularly, every year, a big clean out, and what remained was only the essential and the things that I really loved. This like life, to only have what and who you really love in your life, what could be better.

The top of our dresser from the 1920's (was my grandma's), that sits in the living room.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Saturday, November 7, 2009

the faceless doll



One of the first objects I thought of when I started this project was this faceless doll. I found it one day on top of a garbage container, as if whoever was getting rid of it couldn't bear to actually toss it in with the trash. I took it to my studio where it sat near me for a couple of months. In one of my cleaning moments I took it to school and attempted to leave it in the props room where I was teaching a drawing class. It lived in that dark closet for some time, among the bottles and white geometric shapes and cast off shoes, the tea pots, the cow skull, and other still life objects. I actually forgot it was there. Nine months later I was teaching another class at the same school and I rediscovered it. I had to take it back.

Dolls are so freighted with associations. This one is no different. Only, I don't know who made it. I don't know who it originally belonged to. And I don't know why it doesn't have a face. And yet I still relate to it so strongly.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Living Room Collection

Chris Elliott's found collage

Correspondence #2 Laptop Umbilical

October 7, 2009

This made me think about attachment and impermanence.

The other day my laptop powercord stopped working. I hadn’t noticed right away. The warning came on my screen that the battery was running low. But my computer was plugged in. I looked at the little place on the magnetic plug where the light usually tells me “green: all is charged and ready” or “red: I need the juice – keep me near an outlet”. I didn’t see either. Nothing. Just a cold, empty eye where the color used to be. And my computer was hanging on by the dying embers of its energy-dependent life. I tried not to panic. I hadn’t yet determined that it was the powercord, so I had lightheaded visions that I was about to lose all of my carefully constructed digital pearls.

When I turned myself and my computer over to the hands of the experts I was relieved to discover it was only the cord. I have a new one now and I am definitely claiming it as a belonging. I am grateful to the old one, but I have no desire to keep it.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Correspondence #1


























27 september 2009

Greater Los Angeles feels very intense to me these days. People. Cars. Buildings. Sidewalks. For miles and miles. So many people. I'm often in my car, though. By myself, I am passing by.

Our little apartment is simple. There is comfort here, surrounded by the things that are familiar to me. I have a lot of objects out where I can see them. And, I do see them, just about every day. I soak them in. I take in the light passing through glass. I think of the person who gave me the mask, the doll, the tiny, brick-red tea pot. I feel the smiles and the warmth from the photos. I am here.

For several days I was thinking about belongings and my mind kept punching through each concept I tried to grab on to. Not this. Not this. I was trying not to be attached to anything because I know that things can be lost. To place my love in things feels scary. So I settled on looking at the rise and fall of my skin as I breathed. I belong in my skin. Maybe only here. (?) This felt shivery, though, so today I committed to letting myself be attached to these things. It doesn't feel quite so lonely. In fact, it feels like home. I'm willing to love these things and especially the people I associate these things with. Otherwise I would be starving. Instead, I feel rich.

Beginning the Project

I am beginning a project called Belongings that will be part of an exhibition called Actions, Conversations, and Intersections at the Los Angeles Municipal Art Gallery.

I am curious about our attachments to and associations with things. I’m thinking of the things we own, those inanimate objects with memories that may be so rich for us, but invisible to others. I’m also thinking of belongings because I am seeing a lot of movement of possessions right now. Several of my friends have been moving – downsizing, shifting, organizing, adjusting to changing life circumstances. Many are selling their belongings on line or in yard sales. Tight economic times cause us to think more intently about what we really need. Interesting concepts: essentials and non-essentials.

I’m also curious about belonging as in the illusive sense of feeling accepted or comfortable somewhere or with someone. I see the objects and this feeling as related somehow. These are the ideas I want to explore. I’ve asked artists Jonathan Bueno, Ellen Butler, Chris Elliott, Mary Cecile Gee, Nell Gould, Lynne Mori, and Gretchen Potts to participate by responding to these concepts in some way.

The show is curated by Edith Abeyta and Michael Lewis Miller and it will explore the participatory practices of over 60 Los Angeles based artists and organizations. Show dates are January 28 - April 18, 2010. The opening reception is Sunday, January 31, 2009 at 2pm.